"Be still and know that I am God"
- Psalm 46:10
My background was leading worship in a megachurch so when asked to lead a small service of 40 people with no band, I knew it would be challenging. I put everything together and began to lead the small congregation every week but the response to the worship was not what I wanted it to be. If I had rated it on a scale of 1-10, it would have been a 2.
Week after week, I faithfully sang my heart out, but my “worship-o-meter” was not registering any higher. I began to get discouraged that the congregation was not exploding into full fledge worship – hands lifted high singing at the top of their lungs. If I could just get half of them to sing, I would have been happy.
I began to question. God, did I hear you right? Am I supposed to be here? Is my time here up? Do I look like a worship leader? Is the band hip enough? Am I choosing the right songs? Am I praying enough? Was my “worship-o-meter” broke?
Have you ever felt that way when you have faithfully served but you didn’t know if it was impacting anyone or if anyone even appreciated what you did? Or maybe you felt like God abandoned you and what you are doing isn’t so fresh or exciting anymore? Sometimes God steps away just to watch you. That is when we need to be still, serve Him with a whole heart, and listen for His voice. Be encouraged…You are bringing forth fruit. Be obedient, allow God to use you and you will soon see the goodness from your labor.
God showed me in this small congregation that I had put a label on what I thought worship should look like. The same 40 people showed up one night and I led them in worship as I had always done but God had been working behind the scenes. While we were singing Amazing Grace My Chains Are Gone, an expressionless man who stood on the front row week after week for over a year, began to weep. I was told after the service that he had been set free and gave his life to Christ that night.
I was reminded at that moment the passage in Isaiah 55:8.
"For MY thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways MY ways, declares the Lord."
Needless to say, I threw out that “worship-o-meter” that day. Now, I will be still and know He is God!
God, I worship You in Spirit and in Truth. Help me to always be still and know that You are God and know You are working on my behalf. Fill my heart with Your presence and Your compassion for others. Help me to be sensitive to others faults as well as my own. Teach me to trust You always as You lead me. I adore You and long to hear Your voice and follow Your ways. Let all that I do glorify You. In Jesus Name, Amen